In Part 1 of this series, I shared about my personal struggle in one of my callings where I have the honor of serving my local church through the worship ministry. (Read more about that here) Another calling I have is to be an encourager. I have the great honor of people being drawn to me and I get to hear their stories and speak life into their gifts and hearts. I have heard countless stories from others and a common theme is that we fear we aren’t going to be enough… That we cannot possibly accomplish ___ because we’re just not able. We can’t, we won’t, we don’t. Impossibility captures our sights and grows into the most unscalable mountain we’ve ever laid eyes upon. But the God we serve is greater than any mountain. In fact, He brings your mountains down low and makes your rugged valleys like a plain! (Isaiah 40:4 NIV)
Would you pause for a moment with me? Close your eyes. Deep breath in and deep breath out. Go on… close your eyes for a few seconds and let your mind clear…
You’re back? Great…
Now, answer these questions: have you ever struggled with the lies of fear that you aren’t enough? Or you’re too much? Or you are striving to perform for God, and it is shifting your focus away from true worship? There’s no condemnation here. I’m helping you down a path to freedom, so be honest with yourself. Have you ever placed your focus onto the wrong things in your service in the ministry?
When you experience fear or inadequacy – recognize it for the liar that it is! Pause and ask yourself, “What am I truly believing about God here?”
Melissa Helser says in her podcast, “Our accountability to the Father has to be driven by delight and not duty or fear.”
She goes on to say the following:
“The Lord is still defining my heart… If our hearts are not marked with the Father’s pleasure, we’ll strive for His approval when we already have it.”
“When we experience the true delight of the Father, it actually begins to change our internal world.”
What Melissa is saying is that we must be rooted in delight. We must be rooted in the knowledge of His true nature and thoughts toward us.
Do you believe that He’s good? Do you believe that He’s a good Father and that He loves you, delights in you, guides you, and wants good things for you? Do you believe that even in difficulty, storm, or anguish – that He is still near, still loves you, that He is still for you? Do you believe all the promises His Word speaks over you?
Or do you believe, that your good, loving Father is actually not good at all? Are you letting the lies tell you that He’s setting you up and waiting to watch you fail. That He doesn’t have enough for you, because He’s giving it to everyone else? He’s waiting to let you fall on your face and wrestle in the mud and mire and that He watches in disgust as you struggle? Do you think He loves to push in your face all you can’t do, especially when you don’t measure up?
If you have ever allowed any of the negative lies above to whisper and attempt to take root in your mind or heart – hear me now – it is all lies. HE IS GOOD.
Spend time in His Word. Intentionally set aside time, especially if you serve on a worship team or in ministry – set aside dedicated time to seek Him. Fill your heart and mind with good things that remind you of His truth and promises. Write down scriptures that speak to wounds in your heart and meditate on them. Place them where you will see them often and repeat them. Shout them in your mind (or aloud) when you hear a lie try to conflict with His truth.
YOU are His beloved.
He sent Jesus to die for YOU.
He is using YOU to help minister to people in a way that only music is touching their souls in those moments. You have a powerful responsibility – but you have also already been equipped. He’s enough in you. He has called you. He loves you, and He delights in seeing you share your gifts He has placed within you.
Go in confidence of the great love your Father has for you. And remember:
Fear IS a liar.
“It stands to reason, doesn’t it, that if the alive-and-present God who raised Jesus from the dead moves into your life, he’ll do the same thing in you that he did in Jesus, bringing you alive to himself? When God lives and breathes in you (and he does, as surely as he did in Jesus), you are delivered from that dead life. With his Spirit living in you, your body will be as alive as Christ’s!” [Romans 8:11 MSG]
“Simon Peter, a servant and apostle (special messenger) of Jesus Christ, to those who have received (obtained an equal privilege of) like precious faith with ourselves in and through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ: May grace (God’s favor) and peace (which is perfect well-being, all necessary good, all spiritual prosperity, and freedom from fears and agitating passions and moral conflicts) be multiplied to you in [the full, personal, precise, and correct] knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord. For His divine power has bestowed upon us all things that [are requisite and suited] to life and godliness, through the [full, personal] knowledge of Him Who called us by and to His own glory and excellence (virtue).” [2 Peter 1:1-3 AMPC]
“”The LORD your God is in your midst, A victorious warrior. He will exult over you with joy, He will be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.” [Zephaniah 3:17 NASB]
“Every valley shall be raised up, every mountain and hill made low; the rough ground shall become level, the rugged places a plain.” [Isaiah 40:4]
(edited into a 2 part Series)